First of all i would just like to summarize or just tell you guys what i experienced in this camp. One thing i really enjoy in this camp is the companionship that my new friends brought me, especially Wan Shin. She's a really sweet girl who smiles a lot and she's really understanding no matter what you say. I somehow feel very shock to finally meet a bunch of people who thinks the same way as me and not always contradicting and fight me just to get a stand on their opinion. Even my dorm mates were really nice to talk to. They were really open to everyone's problems and the challenges that each of us face in campus or in our personal life and everyone listened attentively. It's such joy to be surrounded with people who actually wants your presence and really accept you for what you're worth. Throughout the camp i also realize that i'm actually distancing myself from God a lot and how i let the world pump in poisons in to how i think and how i perceive situations ;and the more i distant from God, i feel more vulnerable to every attacks that the enemy tries to throw at me. Sometimes i just feel so weak and i really feel like giving in to my flesh but there's always this thing or thought that goes "what if i just hold on?" and yes, the longer i hold on, the more i felt tired because i was no longer close to God and that the flesh was getting too strong for me to handle. but through this camp, i really felt that my inner being feels refreshed and so ready and enthusiastic for God. I know when people read this, they might feel that i'm being such a hypocrite but the truth is, there's no one in this world that is not; but at least rather than accepting that i'm of my flesh, i'm trying my best to be Christ like. Besides that, while worshiping this morning, i really felt like God touched my heart and i just can't stop my tears from flowing. The feeling was so overwhelming that my body just felt so shock and all i could do was just cry. I can't even continue my singing but i just cried. Right after the worship session, I also learn how to pray for others. All my life i've been so shy when it comes to praying for others in front of them but when i see my friend who was breaking down right in front of me, i just couldn't do nothing. So together with Wan Shing, we prayed for our dear friend. Thank God that although i was shaky throughout the prayer, i managed to say the right things and prayed a meaningful prayer for my friend and i was so happy that she felt better after that :)
I also feel that although some times the speaker might not make any sense but i learnt that God can speak to you not only through the speaker but from the whole experience of the camp and we shouldn't put such burden on the speaker if we can't relate to him. Instead, we should learn to open our hearts to feel and truly experience the whole event.
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